the diary of my pursuit of motherhood-ness

Wednesday, January 4, 2006

It's official

Today I took my last birth control pill! Ahhh, the freedom!! Oh, the possibilities!
I know better than to expect to get pregnant right away, it takes about 3 months for the hormones to leave my system and for my body to regulate itself again to work normally. I know age plays a factor, even though I'm not 30 yet. They have a lot of statistics on how fertility is affected after the age of 30, but not many for the years shortly before. I'm 28 1/2, that will have an affect. I've heard that it isn't even a cause for concern if it takes a year to get pregnant, so as anxious as I am to get this show on the road, I have to be realistic and not worry if it isn't happening. Putting too much stress on us will only have a negative affect on our bodies, and therefore our fertility.
Plus, as much as I want children, this has to be about a product of our love, not about the mechanics of cycle calendars, what kind of underwear we use, meeting a quota of love making, etc. As much as I might be using what I can to our advantage, the bottom line is that we don't feel like we're just baby making machines, just following instructions inputted into our brains.