Ok, I know I've said this before but I am going to make it happen this time. I AM going to lose weight. I am NOT going to just try some fad diet. I am NOT going to reward exercise with food. I AM going to seek help (my personal trainer sister is a good start). I am NOT going to go crazy and hit the ground with all cylinders blazing, slow and steady wins this race.
I have a plan, I have a goal, and I'm going to do it! I am so nervous that my weight is the only reason I can not get pregnant. That's what the fertility clinic told my sister and she was only technically 20lbs over weight (according to BMI which doesn't even take into account muscle mass). I would have loved having her body and they said she was overweight. I'd rather not hear that, and know all this pain and heartache over the last 2 years has been my fault all along.
Not to mention, I'm beginning to see many other ramifications for being over weight. Possible sleep apnea and being not well rested, the beginnings of the osteoarthritis my mom has, not having energy to play with my neices for more than a little while. All things I need to pay serious attention to if I am ever going to be a mother.
So, this time I'm serious. And I'm going to do it!
Oh, and I got my letter, I have my appointment with the fertility clinich March 11th!!
