First real heartache

So, I wasn't pregnant, my period showed up the next day and broke my heart. There had been a time or two in the last 4 months I had a little hope, but this time I thought my hope was actually valid. I'm so bad with being patient, I think I just want it too much and maybe see too much in these 'signs' of mine.
Oh, and I've decided to stop taking my temperature, it doesn't seem to be giving me any consistent information that can be used. My ovulation date is pretty much a guessing game. I've used online tools, the doctor's advice, and who knows if we're any where near hitting the mark. It doesn't help that one month I'm 29 days, then 30, then back again. Maybe if I'd just ignored all the tools out there to help people get pregnant I wouldn't have all these measures to get disappointed by. I could live out this first year of trying in ignorant bliss. But that's just not me. I hate being ignorant, even when it's probably better for me in this case.

First real hope

Well, depending on how long my cycle is, I am anywhere from 3-5 days late today. I've been at 30 days for the last 3 months again, so we'll say 3 days late. I've been getting a weird nauceousness eating ribs and Kellog's vanilla almond cereal, and I don't know if I've ever experienced nauceousness from food before. Then today I felt some almost cramp like twinges and had some spotting. I thought, this is IT! So many new signs, signs that were some what usual signs of pregnancy.
I went out and bought a pregnancy test but it was negative. Really?!? Maybe it was too early to tell. I hope it's too early to tell.