the diary of my pursuit of motherhood-ness

Tuesday, September 15, 2009

Desert Song

The Desert Song (by Hillsong) has been a favorite worship song of mine for several months now but last Sunday a story was read about the singer, and how she lost her baby, at 23 weeks, a week before she filmed the video for this song. She still did it, even though she didn't feel like it, because satan was trying to use her baby's death as a weapon against her, and she had to let God be victorious. Watch the video below for the full story and the song.

Now, even more so, this is my prayer, because I know being without a child is sometimes a weapon the devil uses against me, so that I will feel I have no victory in God, so that I won't praise God. But I will praise God, no matter the season, because He will always be God, He is victorious, and He is with me, no matter what I'm going through.

This is my prayer in the desert
When all that's within me feels dry
This is my prayer in my hunger and need
My God is the God who provides

This is my prayer in the fire
And weakness or trial or pain
There is faith proved of more worth than gold
So refine me lord through the flames

I will bring praise
I will bring praise
No weapon formed against me shall remain
I will rejoice
I will declare
God is my victory and he is here

This is my prayer in the battle
When triumph is still on its way
I am a conqueror and co-heir with Christ
So firm on his promise I'll stand

I will bring praise
I will bring praise
No weapon formed against me shall remain
I will rejoice
I will declare
God is my victory and he is here

All of my life
In every season
You are still God
I have reason to sing
I have a reason to worship

I will bring praise
I will bring praise
No weapon formed against me shall remain
I will rejoice
I will declare
God is my victory and he is here

And this is my prayer in the harvest
And favor and providence flow
I know I'm filled to be emptied again
The seed I received I will sow