I just came across a blog today that echoed where we are at on this fertility journey and it feels great not to be alone, because it is very rare you find yourself in the exact same place as someone else on this road.
Gone through rigorous fertility testing - check
Track with Fertility Awareness Method - check
Take Chlomid - check
Improve overall health with vitamins, etc. - check
Not pursuing any other forms of becoming a parent - check
After pursuing for so long, no longer pursuing any intentional conception techniques - check
And the reason for stopping is the same too. God said so.
She sounds a lot like me. Dealing with the need to participate in the process to make the waiting easier. Tired of waiting. Tired of it not being our turn. Trying to trust and obey God.
We've both come to the place of understanding that all our trying doesn't guarantee anything. In all these years it has done nothing to increase our chances, despite that statistically speaking they should have increased our odds. We've both learned that God is a much more worthy place to put our trust.
Neither of our desires for children have decreased, not in the least. Both of us still experience the pain of the prolonged period of patience. But we embrace His purpose for us, along with it His peace. It's not easy, and a lot of people don't understand, but my relationship with God has grown tremendously through this journey, which ultimately is the best result of this testing I could have ever hoped for.
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