Having a sister who is going through what I am has never been as comforting as it is today. Because my other sister has announced she's pregnant with her third child at our Christmas gathering today. The same day, two weeks earlier, I hoped I'd get to be the one to say those words. And what hurt the most, was for her to say, 'you two only have until March to get pregnant if you want to have kids the same year as my last'. As if it's all up to us. I came very close to bitterly spitting out the lie, "I lost a baby 2 weeks ago", knowing it was probably not true. But it could be. And then maybe she'd see this is not a subject she can so flippantly comment on. Especially considering there are two of us. Two people she obviously didn't see hurting. We weren't sure how it could be missed, times two. But it was.
The saddest part is it took all the joy away from the fact we were going to be aunts again.
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